what if

as most of you know i am now engaged to the dashing drew bongiovi. he is sweet, handsome, charming, and knows ME so so well. i do love him so. as you all know as well, i am not the best about expressing my feelings. it is difficult for me, but for some reason this evening i am feeling quite soft. (most likely because i just went to letters to juliet all alone and cried the whole movie.) but my mind has been thinking about this topic for quite some time so i have decided to write about it, more so for myself than for any of you or anyone that may happen to cross onto this silly thing. i believe in love. all types of love, day love, week love, month love, minute love, (my mother will atest to all of this) i also believe in more than one big love in life, but i do very much believe in real, true and deep love that cannot be tossed about. as you all know most likely, i was almost engaged, almost so soon ago that it is surprising that i m engaged now. although all involved know the story so we do not need to go into that. but the past boy, was a good guy. i know that i was in love with him. several of the types of love that i have named above. if we would have gotten engaged and married i am sure that we would have made it work. however, i do not just want to make it work. i want to think of my special love when i hear any and all love songs, i want to be reminded of them when i see love around me, i want to watch silly chick flicks and always associate the best man in the movie with the man that i myself am in love with. luckily i did not have to think about what if. and it has been the best for all of us. i am so happy, and peaceful within my heart and myself. i feel so lucky, and so blessed to be able to have drew in my life. he has been my best friend for what feels like forever now, but still has not been long enough for either of us. we have so much fun together, but we also have a life together. it is not perfect by any standards, but it is just my kind of love. i never ever question if he is in love with me, or if i am truly in love with him. i just know that i am. he is my everything. everday with him is special. i am surprised by how good it is. that is all for now. love all. xoxoxo
M