today i miss my mom

yes thats correct i miss her a lot. i went to the relief society general broadcast (instead of utah state's homecoming game that we surprisingly won) and it was so good. i didn't know that they were actually having it broadcast in our building this week until about an hour before so i quickly changed my plans attempted to do my hair and went slightly late but earlier enough to hear everything. i sat in the very back all alone. i took notes. i listened. i thought. i cried. and i was happy. there is so much joy in doing what is right without being told to do so. i thought of my mom. i thought back to when she was first put in as relief society president and how i didn't make it as easy for her as i should have. i also thought of how i learned to love relief society and all of the sisters in my home ward because of my mom's example. it made me long for that here. i realized the importance of everything that my mom did for women in my ward and in others before and after that calling and what she continues to do in her new calling. i miss that. i loved to watch her study her lessons and prepare for things and have her meetings. in my heart i knew everything she was doing was so good and i want and still want to be like that. i also watched the young young young mothers (like the same age and slightly older as me! eeeekkk) take care of their darling babies while still attending the broadcast when there were so many who weren't there. i was inspired by the small showing of women that knew that going to the broadcast was much more important than anything else they were doing. there was inspiration and thought to be had and we all got it. today i am blessed just as every day and i am so so so grateful. oh i love my family. each and every one of them but especially my mom and dad today. they are so good. love love
M